I have been insulted twice in two days by being called The "N" word by two different men coming from two different backgrounds and cultures. It was only a month ago that I flaunted so gracefully in all of my glory (natural hair) in the bathroom mirror, where there were four Caucasian women who were a part of a wedding party, and one just felt the need to speak of how nappy her hair would get if her friend didn't fix it right.
What is with all of the ignorance, jealousy, and terror in the world. I'd like believe it would change, but I don't think so, at least not in my lifetime. The human race has come a long way from nothing to almost something, but we continue to hinder ourselves by trying with all of our power to restrain and belittle others. I live by the Golden Rule "Treat Others How You Want To Be Treated", or wait for your Karma. No matter how much I dislike a person or what my personal beliefs and thoughts may be I will never disrespect another life within my control. My ancestors suffered immense torture and abuse for me to relive it by my actions. It could fuck up my life and I refuse to allow anyone else's ignorance to cut off my blessings. We need to wake up and become present, life within so that what we give and put back out into the world what it's been missing - LOVE...
This morning after calming myself from a bitter road rage war of words with a man who had no generosity to allow me to merge to prevent me running off of the road - I thought to myself.. I have many friends of different races, different cultures, many walks of life, with different views on life, religion, and politics and we still all get along pretty well. If we disagree on a topic or a situation we can address it, argue it or talk about it, agree to disagree, laugh, and joke about it and it all be okay. I thought, "how many of my associates would handle the road rage situation the way this white man did this morning?" THINGS THAT MAKE YOU GO HMMMmmm. This man probably works with people of different races and origins, I wonder how many he has to interact with daily, who he has befriended, and if he is teaching his kids, (if any) this sort of behavior. It really disturbs me. We can bring about life or death through the words we speak, speak life and focus on being a light, a source. The "N" word is HATE regardless of what manor it is used in, it is ignorant regardless of your race or where you come from, it is not DEAD!
This morning I woke up stretched high to the sky, thanked the God, and meditated. I fell weak and allowed someone to break my spirit and my focus just that quickly. Now I am working to recover my peace, there is nothing like it. I hope that guy and the Mexican who called me out of my name are having a great day... (Serenity Prayer)
